Navigating life’s lovable chaos
I like to think of myself as a hopeless romantic in love with life. This keeps me always chasing the next big thing. I’ve spent countless hours in therapy, engaged in self-reflection, and had numerous late-night conversations over bottles of wine with my best friends. Through it all, I’ve come to two conclusions: either life itself is the “next big thing” I’ve been chasing, or the more I pursue it, the closer I’ll come to discovering my so-called “calling.” Both options seem fitting, but secretly, I’m hoping for the latter.
I’m still unsure if finding my passion – uncovering what I excel at and understanding life’s purpose – is a quest unique to me or a natural pursuit for all human beings. But I can’t deny how much it consumes my thoughts. This search for meaning has haunted me since childhood, manifesting in anxiety attacks and sleepless nights. I really can’t pinpoint exactly when it started; it feels like I’ve been seeking answers for as long as I can remember…
I’ve often wondered if there’s a way to simply be happy with who I am and what I have. Will I ever be able to silence the nagging voice that whispers, “What if there’s more? What if I’m missing out on something bigger and better?”
Those who truly know me understand that I’m more than just a hopeless romantic – I’m a gypsy, a free spirit, a wanderer at heart. I couldn’t fathom settling down in Mexico like the adults around me, not because their lives weren’t fulfilling, but because I’ve always felt the pull of the unknown, the desire to explore the world waiting beyond my doorstep. Just think about it: there is a whole wide world at our feet, waiting for us to go and discover… I CAN’T, I WON’T have a boring life!!! (not that staying in one place is boring, each their own, it’s just not what I believe is for me)
Today, I still feel pulled towards the unknown, but now, I’m getting a little tired of not finding any answers. Which makes me wonder: Should I be doing something different than just going from one adventure to another? Maybe I should stay in one place longer to actually see some results and find the answers I’m looking for?
What do you think? Do you ever feel like this too, or is it just me worrying about missing out all the time?
What has helped me all along is to stop looking for answers outside. All the answers we are looking for are usually deep inside us. That is one of the reasons I try to listen to my “inner voice” telling me to go on an adventure once again, or the one that told me to quit my job without a real plan other than to look for what sets fire into my heart, or that time I knew I should move to the other side of the world….
I learned to search for answers inside my deepest thoughts and feelings and hunches after one very special book.
This book was like a big hug to my soul. But I believe it’s a book that needs to find your at the right time. So if it’s finding you now, maybe you are ready for it. It’s called «Untamed» by the fabulous Glennon Doyle. If you end up reading it, I beg you to call me, DM me once you’ve finished it to talk about it!!! It’s the best part about it: sharing, dissecting, and discussing.
Which leads me to the second best thing: having spaces to talk about deep shit. I LOVE when people come in with the big guns to the table and ask me about important things, deep subjects; because one thing I hate the most is the idea of finding myself in small talk convos. That is why my second biggest secret to living a purpose-driven life (or at least trying to) is to surround myself with people who are in the same orbit as me. People who are curious about who we are, why we are here and have this gigantic hunger of discovering the world while becoming the best versions of ourselves in the meantime. Fun, right?
The last thing that I want to share with you that has helped me throughout this journey is to do research, to read about the things that interest me, to discover different points of view, to understand and learn more about things and beliefs different from mine so I can build my own base on knowledge and not just be like a sheep following the crowd blindly. And one of the easiest ways to learn other than reading, and talking to people I found are podcasts. To say I am obsessed would be the understatement of the year. And one of my favorites is “On Purpose” with Jay Shetty. If you haven’t listened to it, you must live under a rock (I’m joking!!! but not really) but you should definitely give it a try! He talks about mental health and personal growth in a way that I find easy to consume and that allows me to reflect on it.
Well, that is it for today I guess. If you are a gypsy and life lover like me, tag along! Let’s do this together, let’s try to find those answers that we have been looking for so long but now together!
My life’s about to have a BIG change, so this time, I’m gonna write about it all. Maybe it’ll help me figure things out, or maybe it’ll just make me a better writer (which is something that’s always been there for me). I guess we will see….
Talk to you next week!!
Besos,
Andrea
P.S. If any of this sounds familiar or you’ve been through it, DM me! I’d love to chat. And if you happen to be in Paris, we can even do it over a glass of wine.
